Madii W.

Rugby was my life. I had been playing for a year, but I was obsessed. And, I was good enough, too. Good enough to get emails from the provincial team asking me to try out. I thought I had it all figured out. Captain of the team during highschool, Team Ontario before graduation, Team Canada by first year of University, and 2016 Olympics for rugby 7s.

I'll admit, I made a little trophy case in my mind for rubgy. It was very high up in my respect and mind. I still loved God, went to church, taught Sunday School, and went to youth group. But rugby was everything else.

It was during a 7s tournament (sevens is a version of rugby which is normally played with 15 players), and I was doing pretty good. Scored some tri's, played almost every game the whole time.

I felt on top. And that's when I got hurt. I got a concussion. For those of you who have never had a concussion, its hard to understand what it's like.

It was explained to me as being shoved into having a mental failure.

I don't have normal emotions like everyone else, and little things can set me off. I can't read very well anymore, though I'm in an arts school for literature. I was basically kicked out of society and sent to bed for weeks.

I couldn't read, couldn't do puzzles, couldn't train for the olympics.

I felt like the living dead.

My accident was in October and it is now January and I'm still in recovery. My head still hurts daily but I'm starting to excercise again, little by little.

The thing with a concussion is that it is more than an injury. I honestly feel daily that Satan attacks me.

Nobody could have warned me how much depression, anxiety, and pain I feel emotionally from this.

I went from relying on my own physical skills,

to relying on nothing

The crazy thing through this is, through prayer and meditation, I;ve gotten more oppurtunities for the olympics, as well as God has shown me what he wants/needs me to do.

So here I am. I'm going to try my hardest for 2016. I may be a little behind but I'm have God behind me.

And after that, I'm going to be a youth leader.

If there's anything someone could learn from me, it'd be to love and trust God fully. And when your life feels over, He will show you. He knows what He's doing